Memories: sad and joyful

Memories flutter thru my mind; small boy with laughing face and fat chubby arms and legs, serious elementary boy asking serious questions, teenager sad and depressed! I loved that little boy, the serious boy and yes, even the sad teenager but would I wish him back here with turmoil and pain- I am not sure. I just don't want those memories to disappear from my mind and heart. He was talented and creative, loving and caring, quicksilver young man. I know he is in heaven peaceful and contented, singing and praising all day long. But the ache in my heart is still there and probably will remain there for years to come. Good nite sweet Joshua, good nite. love grandma